Hollywood actress, Taraji P. Henson has talked about a dark moment she had during the COVID-19 Pandemic.
The actress discussed this on her Facebook Watch series, Peace of Mind with Taraji while talking with co-host Tracie Jade and licensed psychologist, Dr. LaShonda Green on mental breakdown.
According to Taraji P. Henson, she contemplated taking her own life during the COVID-19 Pandemic.
“During this pandemic, it’s been hard on all of us, and I had a moment. I had a dark moment.
“I was in a dark place. For a couple of days, I couldn’t get out of the bed, I didn’t care. That’s not me. Then, I started having thoughts about ending it. It happened two nights in a row.”
After such thought, Taraji said she purchased a gun. The actress remembered thinking to herself, “I could go in there right now and just end it all, ’cause I want it to be over.”
Taraji noted that when her 26-year-old son, Marcell Johnson, crossed her mind, she told herself he’d get over it because he’s an adult.
According to her, she began withdrawing and stopped responding to concern loved ones who had reached out, she realized she needed to speak up about her feelings.
“Finally,” the 50-year-old remembered, “I’m talking to one of my girlfriends and I knew, I was smart enough to say, ‘I have to say it.’ Because a part of me was ashamed. I was like, ‘I don’t want them to think I’m crazy. I don’t want them to obsess over me or think they gotta come and sit on me.”
“So one day I just blurted it out to my girlfriend. She called me in the morning and I was like, ‘You know I thought about killing myself last night. Oh my god, I feel so much better. I’m not gonna do it now.” Taraji continued.
The Oscar nominee explained, “…what scared me, is that I did it two nights in a row. And the thoughts kept coming. Now I started think about how. At first, it was like, I don’t want to be here. And then I started thinking about going and getting the gun. And that’s why when I woke up the next morning, and I blurted it out. Because I felt like after a while it was going to take over me and it was going to become a plan because that’s how strong my brain is. Our thoughts… They’re that powerful.”
This comes a month after she opened up about the end of her engagement to former NFL star, Kelvin Hayden.